Life is too SHORT to wake up in the morning with REGRETS, so love the people who treat you RIGHT, forget about the ones who DON'T, and believe that everything happens for a REASON. If you get a chance TAKE it, if it changes ur life LET it. Nobody said it would be EASY, they just promised it would be WORTH it!!!
Showing posts with label Tennessee Titans. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Tennessee Titans. Show all posts
Christmas is not a time nor a season, but a state of mind. To cherish peace and goodwill, to be plenteous in mercy, is to have the real spirit of Christmas. -Calvin Coolidge
After having a wonderful Thanksgiving with family it really set the mood for December. I had the Spirit of Christmas burning through me. It was going to be a busy month! I was working so many promos, and having holiday cocktails with friends. I loved every bit of it! I think its because I didn't enjoy those moments as much the year before until it was almost to late. Not this year, I wan't going to let my favorite time of giving pass me by. I couldn't wait to put up our Christmas tree, hang our stockings, and decorate our house with lights outside. I even planned a Christmas party for my girls. Shopping for them, cooking for them, everything was so fun! It was a little difficult picking the date for the party but we all managed to find a night.
The scent of cinnamon apples and the exchange of candles and laughter, filled my living room over wine and hors d'oeuvres. Chris played a private acoustic session for us. We even skyped with Jennifer who wasn't able to be there because she was in Cali. It was a great night. I was so happy how it turned out. That following weekend I went to Indy for Christmas with Rachel since she was in Nashville for Thanksgiving. We open gifts, went out on the town. It was nothing too crazy, just simple time together. On the last day I was there we had tickets to the Titans vs Colts game. It was my first time at Lucas Oil Stadium. I was definitely impressed in the facility. The game was somewhat of a shocker though. It didn't quite turn out how everyone anticipated it to. That season the Titan's were a little rocky, but the Colts oh my, they were terrible, because they lost Peyton Manning to an injury. Something happened in this game though.
The Colts ended up winning their first game all season! That blue and white confetti had waited months to be released from its holding place. Kinda, ironic how that happened. When I made it home, it was only a week and half until Christmas. I had the MillerCoors Mistletoe party with my SPEAKeasy ladies that week. Lina and I entertained ourselves all night in the photo booth. Trae came for the free beer and then we went Honky Tonkin after I was released. It was such a merry time with my girls. I still had shopping to do for family and Trae. I was starting to stress over his present. I knew he wanted a guitar, but geez they were so expensive. Then one day at work I finally found one online, I was so excited. It was perfect. There were many more celebrations that week. It was Tiffany's birthday, Jennifer and Josh were in town for Christmas, we all got together for drinks and catching up. It truly felt like Christmas. I was so blessed. Trae and I had points that holiday season that we didn't know if we were going to continue working on things. We both had moments and people that we still connected with, I had thoughts that maybe this wasn't right, that maybe there was someone else that was better for me out there, and I just wasn't giving myself the opportunity to explore those feelings. I tried many times before but, he was always the one person that my feelings stayed constant for. The one my heart raced for. We had decided after everything we were trying to do, that we owed it to ourselves to go somewhere just the two of us for New Years. Years before that we always spent this night in the company of friends. But this was different. After the exchanging of presents and time with the family. A few days later we packed the car and headed to the NOLA! It was going to be my first time there, and I couldn't wait to walk down Bourbon Street!
.:XOXO TMARIE:.
The was my last weekend home, my last weekend of life as I once knew it. My last breath on my fight to stay home and work through our troubles. I didn't want to move out, but I was fighting a battle that wasn't able to be won. His Dad came for the weekend, so I came back to stay with Trae that weekend.
I missed being home. I missed my little family, being in my bed next to the one I loved so dearly. It was so hard, as I laid there quietly beside him at night. I could feel the tears slowly fall down my cheeks not making a sound, because I didn't want him to know how sad, but happy I was to be there that night. It had been weeks since we had slept beside each other.
The next few days were going to be tough. We got up that Friday morning and hit the road for a little day trip to Chattanooga. We wanted to take his Dad somewhere he had never been before. So, Rock City was our destination. My sister came with us that day, I needed her by my side that day. It was a beautiful autumn day.
The sky was as blue as can be, the sun shined high above the trees, and the cool, brisk, breeze blew through my hair on the ride down. At any other given point in my relationship this would have been a perfect day. We frolicked through the trails on the mountain snapping photos of the fall foliage, Fat Mans Squeeze, Lovers Leap, High Falls and Fairyland.
After our tour we headed to downtown Chatt for lunch and ice cream. We walked the riverfront and just enjoyed each others company. The day was so peaceful, and the weather was perfect. The night was spent with having dinner close to home and just relaxing by the TV.
The next morning I went to Malachi's soccer game. To see Heidi and her little family, made me so sad to know that this wasn't my future anymore. As I rocked Jase to sleep during the game, I could feel my thoughts and dreams and of Trae and I slipping away, and I was falling back to reality. That night, we had invited my parents over for dinner. We cooked out and all sat around the table and the living room sharing memories of the years before. I had one more night with him and then it was time to say goodbye.
We took his Dad to the Titans game that Sunday morning, it was so much fun....since football is one of my favorite things about fall. It was something we began to do together the previous year. After the game that day we went home to relax, his Dad was leaving for the airport that morning and I was going back to work, and falling down back into my black hole. All my hopes of 2nd chances for us we slipping through my finger tips. It was time, officially time to let go. I began my preparations to move that following weekend into my new place. I was officially single and didn't know what to do with my new found freedom.
We both had moments and people that we still connected with, I had thoughts that maybe this wasn't right, that maybe there was someone else that was better for me out there, and I just wasn't giving myself the opportunity to explore those feelings.
I tried many times before but, he was always the one person that my feelings stayed constant for. The one my heart raced for. We had decided after everything we were trying to do, that we owed it to ourselves to go somewhere just the two of us for New Years. Years before that we always spent this night in the company of friends. But this was different. After the exchanging of presents and time with the family. A few days later we packed the car and headed to the NOLA! It was going to be my first time there, and I couldn't wait to walk down Bourbon Street!
