December 07 Fast Forward

Finally Back in Nasvhille I was so exhausted from mine and Shayna's lil escapade to Fort Wayne, that I couldn't believe I was even attempting to Party Hard that night...but you know what we had a Limo and I was high on life, so I decided what tha Hell here we go, and I've got all day to chill on Sunday....so I did my usual, got dolled up hit up Chris and Kim to see what time we were leaving put on some heels, and hit the road, little did I know I wasn't coming home that night. It was so much fun but it felt like the night was ending to soon, we had met up with Trae and his friends, and he didn't want me to leave so I missed my ride back to the Boro, and stayed with him, (NO nothing happened he was actually quite the gentleman) to my surprise...The next morning I woke up in his big tee shirt and basketball shorts...looking a HOTT mess I put my walk of shame clothes back on and we went to breakfast on the way home to my apartment...Once I was dropped off I got a text from Trae that said "Don't think that, just because I didn't make a move on you that I'm not interested, we have plenty of time for that." ohhhh I was hooked from then on...We got together as much as we could, dinners, Agave, etc...everything was going great up until Dec 22 we all went out that night, and it turned into a disaster, J.J. Showed UP! OH I was PISSED!! He had never once stepped foot into LOT7 before! Now if you remember I haven't spoke to him since October...so he comes to me and thinks that we are still together, (What A DUMB ASS) anyways, Trae got pissed and I thought I ruined every potential thing we had in a relationship...But what we actually learned from that experience is how we liked each other, and how our true feelings came out...after not really speaking for a couple days we resolved things on Christmas Night. He took me to Ristorante Volare in the Opryland Hotel for Christmas Dinner it was so pretty, and I was so nervous. After that night I knew exactly what I wanted and I wasn't stopping til I got it! I fought with J.J. for a few days, but in the end he no longer had my heart, and it was finally time to close that chapter of my life, and how more appropriate than the end of the year! 2007 was by far the craziest year I had in college, I had experienced so many things, from drugs, to all night parties, a crazy spring break, meeting new lifetime friends, rekindling a lost friendship, and meeting the man I want to spend my life with, and I was more than ready for it to end, and I was looking for forward to the night we said goodbye to 2007!

.:XOXO TMarie:.

RockStar Road Trip

So there I was at work when I got a phone call, it was Shayna... she wanted to head up to Fort Wayne, Indiana for a concert....to see her man at the time open up for Papa Roach...so I was down for that..it would be so fun, and its not that far away..so we thought...we left and headed north...about 2 hours in to the trip I received a text...could it be? Yes it was! Trae had texted me to see what I was up to and to give me his number. LOL, I told him i was headed to a concert just for the night and would be back tomorrow morning...he thought I was crazy driving all that way and not even staying the night, but hey you only live once! Throughout our conversation we managed to make plans for the following night to meet up in Nashville, since I was headed for a night out on the town with some close friends of mine, it made since to meet up for the first time since dinner the weekend before where we met. The next thing that happened was so funny..Shayna and I thought we were lost, we thought we passed our exit in the mix of trying to get ready on the road...turns out the exit we were looking for was still aways to go when we looked at the map. We then realized that our short little trip we thought was only like 5 hours turned in to 9!!! Yes 9 hours! It was time for some energy drinks...5 hour energy shots to be exact...and for the record they work...LOL I think I downed 2 of them in like 1 hour...by the time we got through Indianapolis my heart rate was so high...I felt like it was going to pop out of my chest. We stopped just outside of the city to fill up on gas and change...it was snowing outside and I mean piles of snow lined the streets and sidewalks. Just as our luck was...the gas station only had a single bathroom...LOL I remember people coming up and knocking to use the restroom that we were occupying as we continued to put on make up and get dressed..wow what an experience that was! LOL Just shortly after we finally arrived to the concert...We went back stage to watch his performance and upstairs behind the stage from the VIP view room to watch Papa Roach, it was an awesome experience! Next stop the tattoo shop, in true VIP rockstar form the locked us in...we were there pretty much til the sun came up! I was so tired from the drive and the night that I passed out on the couch in the parlor as everyone continued to get tats...When we finally left it was breakfast time and then back on the road. Needless to say it was definitely an awesome experience, but getting back to Nashville was a warm welcoming feeling and I was ready to rock out once more for my weekend!

.:XOXO TMarie:.

I've got Nothing to LOSE

It was the first of December and such a cold day...one of those gray dreary ones that make you wanna curl up in bed and shut the world away. But not for me, not this day...I went in to work just like my regular routine, knowing that when I got off I would have plans to go out, with Kim my old roommate that I had grown closer too since we went our separate ways. I was gonna be just us two, a night for the girls...and then I got a phone call. "Hey I know that we planned to go out so I didn't want to cancel on you...but Kasey wants me to go to dinner with her boyfriend and his friends, what time do you get off?" she said. I replied " I'm getting off early like 6:30, why?" she then paused "OK well if would want to go I will see if Kasey can have to reservation changed for you to be able to go...I will let you know." I told her, "OK that's fine with me just let me know because you will have to go by my place to bring me clothes since I won't have time to change at home." Then she called me back and said the plan was on, that she would swing by my place for me, then pick me up from work, and we would leave to head straight to Nashville for dinner at Flemings at 7:30. I was in a frantic kinda, because I didn't know any of these people but it was kinda fun to meet some new faces. We left as soon as possible to try and make the reservation time. On the way to Nashville we started talking about what I should expect at dinner, and then something sparked in her thoughts that since I wasn't dating anyone anymore that I would probably find an interest in one of the guys at dinner tonight...I looked at her and laughed literally, when she described him I was thinking to myself, what is she talking about?!? LOL How in the world would she be able to tell me that I would find him attractive. So I told her OK we will see, but I'm not interested at all in dating right now... We pull up to the restaurant and park, as we are going up the escalators we reach the top make a turn to the right and see some people standing waiting. I looked over at Kim and immediately smiled and said "Is that Him?" She looked at me and said "yep that's Tracey." So we introduced our selves and then were seated for dinner. It was quite funny how we sat across from each other at the end of the table, Kim, Tracey and I seemed to carry on a non formal conversation for most of dinner, as we finished up, we then went to Morton's for dessert, which was amazing! It was at Morton's that I realized that Kim was right, we had talked about so many things that I thought was had in common. So we carried the evening on a little further to LOT7 one of our favorite places to go in Nashville, I thought it was weird how I never saw him there before. So we danced and laughed and then it was time for the evening to close, Kim and I left early with a simple goodbye. In case you are wondering NO we didn't exchange numbers, I knew that I would eventually see him again. That following wed, while I was at work I got a text from Kim asking if it was OK for Kasey to give my number to Christian (Trae's best friend) so that he may give to it Trae, and that's how it all started...I didn't have anything to lose, and taking chances on someone completely new to me was just the change I needed.




.:XOXO TMarie:.

Screwing my Head on Straight

After Halloween, I faced the month of November battling with myself about someone who obviously didn't care about our relationship. Yes I am talking about J.J. I went day by day wondering if he was gona call, or stop by my apartment. I told myself I'm not going to be the one that holds our relationship together, so the effort is gona have to come from him if he wanted or deserved the last chance I gave him. I'm sure my friends got really tired of hearing about how I was so torn up about him, we all knew he wasn't worth a bit of my time. I mean he even worked with my sister, and she lived with me!! How could you not make an effort?!?! So I was having dinner with my girls on a regular basis, and going to my best guy friends house for advice. We always had the best talks, he always knew what to say and we would just sit around drink coffee over studying and voice our dreams and expectations of our lives past college. He could always get me back on track for what I wanted in life. I thank him dearly for that. So with my head screwed back on straight and on the fast track to graduate, I was ready to buckle down. I still went out to line dance on Weds with an occasional Thursday night at Jim's and Nashville on Saturdays. I was doing better in school, I made contact with Americasmart, and landed an interview on Jan 2, 2008...a great way to start off my new year with a new direction...Thanksgiving had passed, spending time with my family was definitely needed, I was feeling really good about myself, but one day would come that would take my happiness to another level!
.:XOXO TMarie:.

As the Color of the Leaves Change, so do the Days of our Lives

My craziest summer yet was coming to a close.....school had started, as the sun kissed your face with the last bit of warmth, you could feel the crisp cold autumn air was blowing in from the west..and the leaves were painting beautiful golden yellow, red, and orange all over the trees of TN. It was Fall my favorite of the 4 seasons that we get to experience every year. A lot of things were about to change for me. I was becoming pretty close with a friend of mine...and was debating whether or not to take it any further and risk our friendship or keep it cool...Stampedes was still a regular Wednesday night for me..my new found love for line dancing brought me back to that place every week, with my old roommate that became a close friend. She was honest and true, who knew? I mean once we got rid of the psycho our friendship could bloom. I was finally catching up in school from the year I commuted..Fashion Merchandising was my direction and passion, and I was determined to land the internship that sparked my interest from the first day of classes. It was in Atlanta, at Americasmart for the fashion office. I had told myself from day one that I was going to get that internship and I was dedicated! Things seemed to be going my way finally. I was actually happy...I started modeling and I had great friends around me, to occupy my time from J.J. who, of course was still trying to pop into my life...but I wasn't letting my guard down. If you're wandering yes I let him back in for one last chance but he blew that right after Halloween. We didn't speak til the end of Dec....In the mean time I took a chance on love.

xoxo TMarie

007 Summer

OF the first things first! 007 was a crazy year! It all started on Spring Break in the redneck riviera Panama City Beach, FL....where once a year loads of horny college kids migrate to from the hills of TN...cut off shorts, and bikini tops...mixed with a lot of alcohol, sand, sex and sun...who knew you could meet best friend there? Right? well I did! I was at the end of my relationship with J.J. on a break per say...when I was out roaming around the streets of PCB without a care in the world, the sand between my toes, and a nice cold beverage in my hand! This was my last crazy college spring break and I was gonna enjoy it. So I met some mutual friends at TIKI BAR (The local club at the Sandpiper) we danced our drunk asses off all night followed by shot after shot of washington apples, not sure how we made it back to our hotel but we managed...The next day I went to meet up with them at the beach to hang out drink and catch some sun, later that night I went to meet them at the condo that they were staying at and there she was! Her cute lil goldie locks and great personality who wouldn't want to kick it with her...she was awesome...it wasn't til we got back to TN that we would get closer as friends....and my party life style would go to a further high. Back in the Boro we were, after a week to remember, little did I know my best guy friend I lost 3 years ago due to his girlfriend would reenter in my life as if we had never let go of our friendship. My reality was coming to a close that my relationship with J.J. was over but I had brand new wonderful friends to hold me down. So it began, a ritual of nights during the week...Monday night- rest, Tuesday night- Jim's, Wed night- Stampedes, Thurs night- Jim's, Fri night - Ontherocks Nashville, and SAT night -Nashville, Sunday Night- Silverados...I mean it was never ending...I don't even know how I made it to class....it was so much fun...although work was getting the best of me...in came the open exposure to drugs..and yes I was still at Hooters, Xanax bars, Lortabs, Somas, Adderall....you name it was there. I know I was stupid to try these, but I did and learned my lesson. I was just fortunate to never fall to the addiction that I saw my fellow hooters girls do. When summer hit...class was out, it was time to hit the pool and the lake...I got fired for missing a meeting a Hooters...and didn't go back to work until the end of the summer....so one hell of a summer it was. I didn't have to worry about bills, that was taken care of as long as I partied with everyone...and that's exactly what we did!!! I'm talking about a constant drinking binge, drinks at the pool or the lake, all day, a nap around 6 and then get up about 9 to get dolled up for a night on the town, after hours, then back to bed at about 5 am and get up the next day and do it all again, I made some bonds that summer, me and my girls would head out to Nashville on a regular basis, its a miracle that I survived. With summer coming to an end...I was sad to see it go, although my life wouldn't change much, instead of pool time it was school time...but the party never stopped. The leaves were turning and Fall was just around the corner, the change in the weather brought a change upon my life. Life in my fast lane was starting to slow down.

xoxo TMarie

Something Old but New

My Life In FAST PACE......

I started this blog as a memory because a friend of mine made a good point I want to be able to look back on what I did when I was young and full of life. So where do I begin......How about with something old....I little background about me and where I am in life today. I was born on the warm beaches of the Sunshine state in beautiful St. Pete, FL.

My parents moved me up north to the country music capital of the world... Nashville, Tennessee when I was 5..(uh yes tragic) although it is a beautiful state. I was raised here in the south a lil country girl some might say, but I like to think otherwise at times. Cheatham County, a predominantly white small town with no red lights was a sight to see growing up in rural America where everyone knows your name and you're related to your neighbors... yes, yes, that's where i was raised, (thank god I wasn't related to anyone in school though) made it easy to date LOL. This quiet small town where if you were popular it was cool to wear liberty overalls and camouflage to school... with rebel flags flying behind big, jacked-up trucks in your high school parking lot was sure to prove an afternoon of mudding on Hamknight Rd. and a Friday night high school football game followed by tailgating, drinking beer, and raising hell by the local Piggly Wiggly...aka (THE PIG) it was fun at the time but in the end it just wasn't for me. So I did what I needed to do to get by and graduate to get the hell outa dodge. <---country slang for MOVE! and thats exactly what I did, summer of 2003.

College here I come....oh those were the days....not that long ago, but far enough to miss them like crazy! I had my bestfriends by my side and we were ready to take on the world. Moving day was the best feeling ever! MTSU was going to be my new home for the next 4-5 years of my life and I was ready more than anything! My bestfriend and I got an apartment moved in and had our first huge fight on homecoming night. We lived a few months without speaking, I couldnt take it anymore so I moved out early lived with some crazy bitches, til my lease was up. Then I saw her on campus a few months later and we patched things up and vowed to never let our friendship go...I was in such a mixed up point in my life, so I moved home for Sophomore year and commuted, starting workin a Hooters making some $$$ and moved back the following year. Spring Break 2005 was def one of my favorites...my bestie and I finally got to go on our first trip to the beach (our favorite place) together DESTIN...wow that was crazyness and then I followed that vacay with a trip MIAMI for the first time ever as well as NYC! If you are wondering yes I skipped class for Miami but come on who wouldnt?!? That summer of 2005 would be the change of my life, as some might say LMFAO..yes I let a little chocolate in my life, if you know what I mean ;) I also moved into a house with someone I just met that summer she was a little crazy too, but our other roommate turned out being a great friend. I dated J.J. for about 2 years and it was a rollercoaster of a relationship too much detail. It ended the summer of 2007 when we split up for space and he knocked someone up. That was pretty much the end for him and I, we tried to make it work but it just wasn't happening. But I did turn 21 over that 2 year span and had some great times and spring breaks that brought important friends into my life...but it was almost time to grow up...but not before one more blow out of a college summer made for memories.

xoxo TMarie